Anna Bradfield Writes

Discovering the extraordinary in everyday life

Resolutions: Do People Still Make Those?

I walk into my neighborhood McDonalds, like I do almost every morning.

The Christmas decorations still hang on the wall and cling to the windows. The music still reflects silver-tinseled Santa Claus renditions and probably will until around the 10th of January.

I like the lady behind the counter; she’s one who will actually greet me. She’ll let me place my order instead of assuming she knows that I want. She’s one who will engage in conversation instead of hustling me along so that she can get back to the gossip with the girl at the drive-through window. And she’ll say thank-you when the order is filled instead of expecting her customer to say it.

“Morning. Can I have a large diet Coke please?”

“What? You’re not getting your usual — the number two, substitute biscuit? Is this some kind of resolution or something?”

“Oh, no…I’ve kind of given up on making those.”

“Yeah, me too. The last time I made a resolution….”

I can’t even be honest with the McDonalds lady? Am I afraid of disappointing her? Am I afraid that she might try to hold me accountable the next time I order the usual?

‘I thought you resolved to go without these melt-in-your-mouth marvels for the year…’

And then where would I be? What would I have as a comeback? No, it’s just easier to pretend that,

‘Hey, I just want a diet Coke today, OK?’

Wow. I’m kind of a mess. Please tell me I’m not the only one!

Of course I have a million resolutions for 2016. I have financial, relationship, spiritual, organizational, and career goals (and I’m probably forgetting a few), so I need to come up with resolutions for all of them, right? Would you expect anything less of me by now?

I have a way of overtaxing myself to the point that I accomplish nothing rather than focusing on the one or two things most crucial to my sense of well-being. I’m not sure I know how to change this about myself. I’m not sure I want to change it.

It’s kind of my little game, pretending I have it all together – relaxed, confident – when inside my mind is going, going, going, constantly going, thinking of new ideas, considering problems from different angles….

And actually, to say I accomplish nothing is incorrect. I accomplish a lot in this manner. It’s a discombobulated approach, but it gets me where I need to go.

For 2016, my overarching resolution is not to beat myself up. I need to accept myself as I am, enjoy where I am and what I’m doing right now. Of course I need to look to the future, but that doesn’t mean I can’t celebrate today.

For 2016, I will thank the Lord for his goodness instead of praying, “Thanks for this, but….” I will focus less on faults and celebrate accomplishments, both in myself and in others. I will focus more on what God thinks of me and less on what others may or may not think of me.

If I can pull this off, I will have peace no matter how many nights my ideas keep me from sleep.

Your Inspiration Prompt: Until next time, tell us one of your resolutions for the new year.

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About Anna Bradfield

Anna Bradfield has been spinning tales, exaggerating the truth, and flat-out lying almost as long as she could talk. Nowadays, though, she calls it fiction. Buy her ebooks, Hey Grampa! or Barnyard Babies today. Join the online community and receive a free copy of her ebook, Boy Crazy.

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